Good Day

I’m feeling good about my progress.  I haven’t been ‘perfect’, but I’ve done well and been realistic with my expectations.  My plan will see me through in the long run.  I’m not going to beat myself up over ever slip, just focus on the numbers.  I want to see them going down each month.  This is my first month charting, but I know if I were to rate the last few months everyday would have been between a 7 and a 10.  Since setting my goal and starting charting with the 0-10 system 11 days ago, I still have not pulled from my scalp.  Yay!!  I have had seven 0’s, two 1’s, and two 4’s.

I have to look at the numbers to feel good about my progress. If I look in the mirror, I can’t tell, my hair still looks about the same.  I’m not focusing on how it looks, I’m thinking about how I’m doing and how I’m thinking.  I have a positive attitude, which is a game changer.  Yes, I pulled 2 eyebrows out today, BUT then I stopped myself even though the urge was strong. I am choosing to focus on the fact that I stopped and not that it wasn’t a perfect day or a ‘pull free’ day.  I don’t want to get stuck up in being pull free.  Its more important to improve, do my best, and love myself even when I have a bad 10 day…we all fall down, but it’s how we get back up that defines us.

As a teacher, I am a little obsessed with rubrics…so to help myself with Claudia’s rating system I made myself a rubric.  It’s not an exact science and I think over time I will get a feel for where I fall.  For now, I needed some guidance on specific things to look at when rating my pulling.  I also made up 5 ground rules for myself.  If I pull as a result of breaking these ground rules, then I will get a worse score.  I will probably tweak this as I go along.

 

Score

#Pulled

Rules Broken

Time Spent Pulling

Areas pulled From

0

0

0

0

0

1

1-3

   

1

2

4-10

1

<5min

 

3

<20

   

2

4

20-30

2

<15min

 

5

30-40

     

6

40-60

3

<30min

3

7

60-80

     

8

80-100

4

~1 Hour

 

9

100+

     

10

Way too many to count

5

Hours

 

 

Rules:

#1 Where Bandaides or other barriers whenever possible, if not wearing them use fiddle toy /keep hands below neck and BE AWARE.

#2 Avoid mirrors. Don’ t stand close, do makeup quickly, avoid touch ups or unnecessary glances.

#3 Keep hands off of face. Don’t touch hair or eyes. Use only one finger or utensil if need to itch or touch eye/head and don’t linger. BE AWARE.

#4 Change activity when triggered before pulling begins.

#5 When stressed find way to take a break and relax (at least 1 minute deep breathing break).