I am halfway to my first goal. My goal to have one month with more good days than bad days in regards to my hair pulling. This goal, which first sounded impossible, now seems doable, easy even. Next month, I will have to raise the bar.
I have gone 15 days without pulling from my scalp and of those 15 day I have had only 3 ‘bad’ days of pulling my lashes and/or eyebrows. Now when I look back at those ‘bad’ days I don’t see them as failures, just reminders of why I need to stay strong, aware, and focused on my recovery. I know that I need to follow the rules I have given myself and use the strategies I know that help.
I cannot become complacent with good enough progress, this has been my downfall in the past. It is these hiccups along the way, that keep me focused and determined. Over time, I know they will be less and less, but I do see the purpose and I will not loose hope or become discouraged. Rather I choose to look at these slips as days to refocus my energy and remind myself why I am working so hard. I know I will break free, but it will be a process.