This past month marks a change in the way I view myself. For years, I thought trich had bested me and I was weak because I did not have the will to fight with the level of intensity needed. Now I have renewed faith in myself. I decided to give this my all after recently losing my teaching job in June. I thought I could fight this as I finally had more time and energy to devote to my recovery process. In addition, I assumed my life would be less stressful as I was not trying to juggle a demanding teaching position with all of my other responsibilities as a mother of 3. I have been proud of my progress and hoped I would be able to sustain this level of devotion when I return to the stressful rat race.
The funny thing about life is that you can’t outrun it. Life happens. There is never a dull moment. You are never free from stress, it just changes forms. There is always something you could ruminate on- if you allow yourself to go down that path. This week, my life took a definite turn for the unexpected, but I refuse to be paralyzed by stress.
If I could credit one thing with my success over trich this month, it is my mindset. I will not be squelched. Instead, I choose to give my fears to God and ask for His continued strength to help me push on. With Him, I can do anything.
It has been one month since I began this blog. My goal was to have more good days than bad days in regards to my pulling. I used Claudia Mile’s recommendation to rate my pulling from 0-10 each day. The rubric I created to rate my pulling is below. I defined good days this month as 0-3. I have been pull free on my scalp for the entire months and have accomplished my goal of more good days than bad.
This month’s totals:
|# of Days||14||2||4||5||3||1||1||0||0||0||0|
|Good = 25||Bad = 5|
Score #Pulled Rules Broken Time Spent Pulling Areas pulled From 0 0 0 0 0 1 1-3 1 2 4-10 1 <5min 3 <20 2 4 20-30 2 <15min 5 30-40 6 40-60 3 <30min 3 7 60-80 8 80-100 4 ~1 Hour 9 100+ 10 Way too many to count 5 Hours