One Month

This past month marks a change in the way I view myself.  For years, I thought trich had bested me and I was weak because I did not have the will to fight with the level of intensity needed.  Now I have renewed faith in myself.  I decided to give this my all after recently losing my teaching job in June.  I thought I could fight this as I finally had more time and energy to devote to my recovery process.  In addition, I assumed my life would be less stressful as I was not trying to juggle a demanding teaching position with all of my other responsibilities as a mother of 3.  I have been proud of my progress and hoped I would be able to sustain this level of devotion when I return to the stressful  rat race.

The funny thing about life is that you can’t outrun it.  Life happens.  There is never a dull moment.  You are never free from stress, it just changes forms.  There is always something you could ruminate on- if you allow yourself to go down that path.  This  week, my life took a definite turn for the unexpected, but I refuse to be paralyzed by stress.

If I could credit one thing with my success over trich this month, it is my mindset.  I will not be squelched. Instead, I choose to give my fears to God and ask for His continued strength to help me push on.  With Him, I can do anything.

It has been one month since I began this blog.  My goal was to have more good days than bad days in regards to my pulling.  I used Claudia Mile’s recommendation to rate my pulling from 0-10 each day.  The rubric I created to rate my pulling is below. I defined good days this month as 0-3.  I have been pull free on my scalp for the entire months and have accomplished my goal of more good days than bad.

This month’s totals:

Score 0 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
# of Days 14 2 4 5 3 1 1 0 0 0 0
Good = 25 Bad = 5
Score #Pulled Rules Broken Time Spent Pulling Areas pulled From
0 0 0 0 0
1 1-3 1
2 4-10 1 <5min
3 <20 2
4 20-30 2 <15min
5 30-40
6 40-60 3 <30min 3
7 60-80
8 80-100 4 ~1 Hour
9 100+
10 Way too many to count 5 Hours

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