Never give up, don’t stop trying.This is easier said than done, but very important in recovery. Last night my eyelashes were really bothering me. This agitation had been building for days. There was one that was especially bad. In a moment of weakness, I impulsively took off my band-aide and plucked out that pesky lash. It was felt great for a second until reality caught up with me and I realized I gave in, again. This seems to be the pattern of my life..do good for a bit and then it all comes tumbling down with one hair. I stopped myself for a few minutes and went back to watching a movie. As usually is the case, I did not stop at one hair. In a growing frenzy, I quickly undid my 11 days of hard work and was left feeling a mix of relief and extreme disappointment. I went to bed vowing to start fresh in the morning. At least I had not touched my scalp so I had that to hold onto.
My daughter woke me up this next morning asking if we could go to church. She loves church and is always my encouragement to go. I love it once I’m there, but getting myself out the door always seems daunting. It had been months since we last went to church. My service offers an online version, which I often choose over actually going to church. I hate going out in public, which is in large part due to my trich. The worse my pulling, the more reluctant I am to go out. I feel self conscious and hate the long process of hiding my pulling.
I get to church and find a new sermon series titled, “Don’t Stop” had started. The main idea is that obstacles and trials will come and go, but one thing can always remain constant on your journey. Good things happen when we don’t stop trying, even when it seems like our efforts are getting us no where. Each step matters in the scheme of recovery and each day you keep trying, keep fighting, is another day closer to the goal. I will post the link for the sermon below. I highly recommend taking some time to watch the message. It put my struggle into perspective and was very inspiring.
The finish line. The goal. What are you working toward? Obstacles and trials will come and go, but one thing can always remain constant on your journey. Keep your eyes on the prize because good things happen when you Don’t Stop.