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Battling Bipolar Mania

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Racing mind never stops
Thoughts run out
In uncontrollable speech
driving others mad

I see myself causing anxiety
But am unable to stop
I prefer depression
No one knows what is going on inside

My mania overflows and
Cannot be contained within
Fully exposed and vulnerable
Unable cope with life

Forever writing lists and setting alarms
Help me focus despite my desire to accomplish
Every random thought that pops into my mind
I get a LOT done, but
My long disorganized process
Concerns everyone around me and
distracts me from pressing responsibilities

I don’t know what to do
It’s never been this bad

God please take this!
Heal me help me
Strengthen me
I know you are there
and will not give me more
than I can take so you
Must think I’m pretty strong

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Stigma

Taking the mask off describes my experience with the stigma of mental illness so well. In our society we feel the need to hide our true selves as we would not be accepted for who we are. People who do have not experienced mental illness do not understand, and often think it is all in our heads. Going to therapy and taking medication show weakness. For trichotillomania there is an extreme stigma. “You pull your hair out, why don’t you just stop?”. Yes, if it was that easy do you really think 4% of the population would be doing this!? Geez it’s not like I want to spent my time pulling, thinking about pulling, trying not to pull, and hiding my pulling. If everyone had a little more compassion, this world would be a lot different.

Never judge a person until you’ve walk a mile in their shoes.