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Battling Bipolar Mania

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Racing mind never stops
Thoughts run out
In uncontrollable speech
driving others mad

I see myself causing anxiety
But am unable to stop
I prefer depression
No one knows what is going on inside

My mania overflows and
Cannot be contained within
Fully exposed and vulnerable
Unable cope with life

Forever writing lists and setting alarms
Help me focus despite my desire to accomplish
Every random thought that pops into my mind
I get a LOT done, but
My long disorganized process
Concerns everyone around me and
distracts me from pressing responsibilities

I don’t know what to do
It’s never been this bad

God please take this!
Heal me help me
Strengthen me
I know you are there
and will not give me more
than I can take so you
Must think I’m pretty strong

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Happy to be Alive

While you wake up today, someone is taking their last breathe. “Thank God for another day and don’t waste it!

As recommended by Joyce Meyer in my “prayer bootcamp” that I started April 1st, Every morning I wake and the first thing I say is, “I will rejoice for this is the day the Lord has made. ”

Just the fact that I woke up and I am alive is a miracle. On top of that, I have even more for which I am thankful. To name a few:my family (I love you all!!!), our health, our safety, love, a God sent home that is a perfect fit for our family, a ‘new’ van, and a camp where our children can go to see their grandparents almost any weekend that is an ‘instant vacation’. It is an amazingly peaceful campsite on the river. It is cut off from civilization and technology (if you can leave your smartphone in your pocket Chelsea…). This really helps me focus on God and my family, which are #1 and #2 in my life. I can’t wait for our first camping trip this Memorial Day weekend.

Long post, but I’m feeling thankful this morning. There are many more reasons that I am thankful, but I could sit hear all day and list them (which I plan to do in my ongoing conversation with God today). I never put an amen at the end because it’s like a text message that keeps going. Do you say bye each time you type something to your friend? No, not usually unless it’s ‘extra important’ ;). It’s the same idea here. ❤